I think one of the key things here is not 'outside of work' but 'alone, doing self-directed things'. Personally, I find doing self-directed things very hard, and self-directed things down in social isolation, even harder. The only thing that *sorta works* in that respect is knitting, but even then, you could argue rightly that I'm not doing it in social isolation; I learned from Mom & have myriads of friends I can talk about knitting with, show my projects, receive validation & encouragement, teach things to and leaner from, etc. So, yeah.

These maybe are the characteristics you might want to look for and avoid - perhaps you can rejigger planned project by finding a way to make them social, embedding them in other stuff, roping a friend in, making an online cheering team w/ set meeting times or creating your own group for making shit together, etc. Not all is lost! Far from it. It's good to learn who you are (now - things might change) and how you function so you can take rational steps to deal with it and work around it. Wisdom & coping skills development.

+ learning to be less hard judging yourself comes in handy too. <33