I'm still thinking about this. I wish I had answers for you... I mean, no, I don't think you suck at life; it's more complicated than that. (And I kind of continue to think it seems depression-symptom-y, even if you don't perhaps feel depressed).

In some ways I think your question/s could make an amazing Ask-mefi question/thread; I have ideas starting to coalesce but I think crowd-sourcing would definitely be interesting here.

anyway, all this to say I'll be back; I'm thinking about this.

(I think about you <3)